Monthly Archives: April 2005

no title as of yet

Today doesn’t get a title i suppose since there hasn’t really been a theme to speak of. Not saying it was bad, just blah. I finished one exam, and it went decent so that gets a Woot.
I feeling a little overwhelmed I must admit over Calgary and exams. I know God can provide but calling people actually scares me like nothing else. Why? Meh, couldn’t tell you. But I just have to suck it up. I am trying to get at least 5 more letters out by tomorrow so lets see if I can come up with that many people! And addresses!
I am excited though, I guess I just want to get exams over with, but then that means packing, leaving….leaving. Oh man I don’t know if I can come to terms with that. If I do get a co-op in the Soo that means 8 months away. I love this place! Sarah will be moving into my room, someone else using my food cupboard. Well putting their food in there! Whew….man this could make me weepy.


No more

No More inside voices! I can’t take this insideness any longer. Not only am I inside I have been abandoned, all my housies are gone. I think when I talk from now on today I will use my outside voice…i suppose that means talking loudly to myself. I also gave up on silence now, i need some music even if it compromises my studying a little. It is a balance between my grades and my sanity. Sometimes i wonder which is more important. This is one of the first times I will go into an exam that my marks on the exams will ‘make me or break me’ as they say. Meh, its my own fault tho, I had way too much fun for my own good this semester!
Do you grades matter in the long run? I guess not but still it isn’t a good mentality. How can I show my parents I am thankful for them helping me pay for school if I dont’ take it seriously. Alright, I guess that sentence was the cue for me to get back to work….oy


Yeah its that kind of year when everyone comes down with a little reflect-itis. I can’t help it, this year has been awesome, and i guess ‘reflecting’ kind of sums it up, makes sure that nothing is left behind. Or maybe its easier to look back than look forward…who knows.
I have been trying to write down what God has done in my life this year to be sure that I can look back and see what God did, when and maybe it will keep me on track. One thing that has been a main lesson for me has been that all sin is sin, is the same. I guess by this I mean that it doesn’t matter what someone does, drink, swear, be jealous….it just matters that it ‘misses the mark’ or causes a distance in their relationship with God. The world seems to but a weight on sin, “this one is worse than that one” it creates a barrier. This has helped me quite a bit.
Also, the parable of the rich man has been big…maybe i won’t summarize that tho, i’ll go read it again.
It seems that about this time last semester, ie. exam time, is when I started this here bloggy. I think its a vicious cycle of both being trapped inside (oh, its so nice…) and wanting to do anything but memorize trivial facts about well, its trivial really.
I got my first supporter for Calgary this weekend! I am major excited, but I still have to suck it up and make some phone calls…oh the dread.
Right now, listening to Eagle Eye cherry…i’ve had the cd for years…just listening to it now. I thought I was going to find a treasure and a new fave…I didn’t, don’t listen to it…try something else instead. The Streets on the other hand quite good, british punk-rap might be the best way to describe it…either way a very unique sound. Maybe a few expletives tho, careful.
This weekend was way fun, me and Becky took a little adventure to Toronto for the day. We ended up having to stand on the bus on the way there, no worries tho. It was a beautiful day, what a good atmosphere to just walk around, breathe in the (relatively) fresh air and chill. I didn’t even really buy anything, it was just fun to be there. We did miss the bus to get us home in time for some study…oh well….can’t change that now! My first exam is wednesday, bah…its kinda giving me dragonflies…well sorta…anywho…no…more….dot…things…….

12th Try is the Charm

I I had to try about 15 times to get into here. The site is a little slow today. I have been good lately, Ihave a schedule set out for all the studying I have to do this week to minimize my screwed-ness for exams. Not that any of the original screwed-ness isn’t my fault, it most certainly is. But that isn’t the focus today. These last few weeks I have been spending quite a bit of time appreciating music. I love just about any kind of music. I am checking out some of my old burned cds from years ago that aren’t labeled. its always a surprise to see what I listened to constantly at the time. When I get a new cd I listen to it non-stop for about a month. Right now its Nelly Furtado “Folklore”. Great tunes!
I also decided that I would like to know at this point in my life what i considered to be some of the best music of all time. So this is my list of must have tunes for any play list. It will be different tomorrow, and should actually be about 900 songs but i’ll try to keep it to 10. Here goes:
1. Smooth Criminal by Michael Jackson (although this may be replaced with Thriller or the Free Willy Song at any time)
2. Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen. THis is on here because of its amazing funness to sing along to and even dance if you are feeling brave
3. In my Dreams by The Real McCoy…do i even need to say…early to mid-90s pop with repetitive lyrics and white guys trying to rap…fantastic
4. Behind the Wall by Tracy Chapman. This is sung a capella and its amazing. I demand silence when it is on lol, it is moving and she has a great voice.
5. If I Stand by Jars of Clay, good message and just great song
6. Long Time Gone by THe Dixie Chicks, needed a little country on here for the best short play list ever, this is fun, not overplayed like Earl had to Die but almost as fun to sing along with.
7. I would do anything for Love by Meat Loaf, every list needs a powerful ballad, and this can be sung to without the vocal acrobatics of one by celine dion
Note: this is really hard! I feel like I will miss something that is crucially important because I don’t have any song lists in front of me. These first 10 will be a starting point and will be subject to change until i feel that it is perfected.
8. Love is a Battlefield by Pat Benatar, need I say more? 80s ‘punk’ pop…yes. can be replaced by Girls just Wanna have fun by Cindy Lauper
9. Wannabe by the Spice Girls (basically any spunky Spice girls song can be substituted here)
10. Love is Blind by Eve *there is disclaimer on this one but nonetheless a good song

Hmm…i’m not happy with this yet, but it gives me something to get excited about!